Sad Time of Year

I made this page in my insomnia last night. This is a really hard time of year for me. Friday is the 17th anniversary of my daughter Heather Nicole's death. I always think that time will have taken away some of the sting, but it has just moved underground. I haven't been able to sleep for several days now. This is nothing new. It happens to me 2 times a year. In February around her birthday and in May around her death.

She died when she was a 3 month old baby of SIDS. I can't scrap what few pictures I have of her. It is just too hard. I want them to be perfect, because I can't afford any mistakes on those precious keepsakes.

So instead I made a page of my sister Heather, for whom my daughter was named. This is a variation of this week's Donna Downey class where she challenged us to use really old pattern paper. She used squares. I used hearts...no easy feat, mind you. Even with her pattern, it just didn't want to work out right. Somehow at 1:30 a.m. I got it finished.

I took some time off this afternoon and I'll get to be at home tonight. I need to remember to take it easy this time of year. Be gentle on myself. Do something I love like scrapbooking. In a couple days when the anniversary is past, I'll be fine and there will be time for the busy-ness of life.